Anyone ever feel like their mind might just explode? School started last week, actually, students started last week and we started the week before. So far, so good… except for this feeling like i’m juggling hundreds of balls in the air and i’m about to drop them all. I spent the summer working on getting things to the point where I could only focus on work when work started again but suddenly there are a million other things to think about as well. Why is it that just when you get your to do list down to nothing (or in my case, almost nothing, i’ve never had it down to nothing in my whole life) that’s when suddenly everything piles back up.
I feel like my mind is leaking. I can just be sitting there reading or watching TV and ideas and thoughts go zooming in and out of my conscience. They go by so quickly that I have to stop what I’m doing to chase them and figure out if it was a passing thought or something I’ve forgotten to do. It’s literally driving me mad. I’d venture to say it’s like being on speed although I really have no frame of reference for that one.
I’d like to say I’m going to go now and sit down and read a book but unless there is someway to figure out how to make dinner, water the plants, pay the bills, grade papers, and return emails all while reading, I think i’ll have to save it for another day.